Chapter 66: Chen Hai's Thoughts

  It was night, and the stars were like the most brilliant jewels on a black velvet cloth, so deep and enchanting.

  Mo Shaokun and Chen Hai sat on the steps of the stadium, with a number of empty beer bottles and cigarette butts scattered around them.

  "Do you know? Before coming to Anping, I always thought I was very capable." Chen Hai's face had a hint of self-mockery, his eyes gazing at Mo Shaokun with a distant look.

  Mo Shaokun didn't say a word and quietly waited for his next words.

  He let out a snort of laughter, rubbed his numb face, took out a cigarette and lit it up, taking a drag before saying: "My family is very rich, at least that's how I see it. My dad made his fortune in the 80s by starting a factory, and in our county town, who didn't know the name of Chen Daifu? Even the secretary and the county head would greet my dad with respect whenever they saw him."

  "When I was 14, my parents got divorced. Not long after that, he found me a young and beautiful stepmother. Perhaps to make up for it, my dad spoiled me, no matter how big of a mess I made or what kind of trouble I got into, he could always fix it for me."

  He let out a long sigh, and Chen Hai shook his head self-deprecatingly as he continued: "When I first came to Ande, I didn't think it was anything special. In my opinion, whether it's Ande or our small county town, they're all the same - as long as you have money, you're a big shot! But after living here for a while, I realized that once I left our small county town and my dad's protection, I'm nothing! There are so many people here who are richer than me, more handsome than me, and more capable than me. I'm just like the toad at the bottom of the well!"

  Mo Shao Kun seemed to want to say something, but Chen Hai raised his hand and shook his head: "Don't speak, let me finish."

  Mo Shaokun could only shut up and swallow his words.

  "Ugh... Honestly, Shao Kun, at first I didn't think much of you. You're just better looking than me, right? So why do those girls always swarm around you? Can good looks be eaten as rice? Can they be spent as money? Especially with Wei Qianqian clinging to you every day and you ignoring her, do you know how I feel? I feel like even the cheapest cabbage is being snatched away by a pig, and this pig still finds it tasteless!"

  "I like Wei Qianqian, I really do. I don't even know when it started myself. During military training, seeing her prepare flower tea for you every day with such eagerness, do you know how jealous I was? At that time, I was thinking if only it were me instead, how great would that be."

  Mo Shaokun stared blankly at Chen Hai, he had heard Chen Hai say that he wanted to pursue Wei Qianqian before, but he always thought Chen Hai was just joking around, after all this guy was always laughing and joking around, who could tell when he was being serious or not.

  Chen Hai let out a wry smile, picked up the wine bottle and took a few sips before continuing: "Every day, seeing Wei Qianqian fawn over you, it's really hard on me. It was around that time I got to know Qiangzi, he took me to the game hall and taught me how to play the slot machines. I knew it wasn't good for me, but I quickly developed a taste for that kind of thrill. Especially when I won at gambling, hearing the envy and admiration from people around me, damn it felt so fulfilling!"

  Mo Shaokun didn't say a word, he understood Chen Hai. In his hometown, he was the young master who could walk sideways, but when he arrived at Andover, he was just an ordinary student. There were many people here who were better than him, so he couldn't find any of the pride he had in his hometown, which made him feel very lost.

  Adding to that, Wei Qianqian's affair accelerated his downfall. With his conditions, he didn't know how many girls would have been willing to fawn over him back in their hometown, but here, when he encountered a woman he liked, who knew she wouldn't take him seriously? This huge sense of disparity made him self-destructive, and he tried to find a sense of existence through other means. That's when Qiangzi appeared.

  Mo Shaokun can imagine that when Chen Hai first came into contact with the slot machine, he must have won every time he gambled. This is a common trick used by those in the gambling circle to lure people in, and this winning streak just satisfied Chen Hai's vanity, so he fell deeper and deeper until he thoroughly fell into someone else's trap.

  "After the welcoming party, you guys became even more popular. No matter where you go, you're always the center of attention. But what I didn't expect was that Wei Qianqian still has a crush on you. So many people like her and pursue her, including some who are really excellent, but she doesn't give any of them a second glance. It seems like there's only you in her eyes. I've been asking myself, what does Mo Shaokun have that I don't, besides being handsome and able to sing?"

  "To be honest, I really disliked you at that time, and it had already reached the point of disgust! I felt that you were always playing with us. You could have performed well on stage, but instead, you pretended to be nervous in front of us. You already had Yin Fei, but you still wanted to monopolize Wei Qianqian! If you liked her, I wouldn't say anything, but you clearly didn't like her, so why didn't you tell her clearly? Why did you let her foolishly look at you and do everything for you?! I hated you, really hated you, but I couldn't show it because we lived in the same dormitory. I couldn't let others say that Chen Hai was a despicable person who could betray his brothers for a woman!"

  Mo Shao Kun was speechless, he had always been low-key, in order to get closer to his brothers and classmates, in order to be able to get along well with everyone like countless other students carefree and enjoying university life. But he didn't think that many things were not under his control, and unintentionally, he could also hurt others.

  Yes, when someone is too eye-catching, the people around him will always appear dull and unremarkable. Chen Hai had such thoughts, what about the others in the dormitory? What about his other classmates? Would they also gradually drift away from him because he was too outstanding? At this moment, Mo Shaokun felt extremely depressed, unbearably depressed, he didn't want to be isolated by the people around him one day, but what could he do?

  "This afternoon when you brought Xu Jie and the others to the game hall to find me, did you know what I was thinking at that time? The first thought that came to my mind was that you were all coming to make fun of me, haha, wasn't I being a bit too suspicious? But it wasn't until you casually threw several thousand yuan in front of him without even blinking that I realized I was wrong, I really was wrong. Several thousand yuan is a lot of money for many people, but you just threw it away like that for my sake, even though you knew I would pay you back, there aren't many people who can actually do that at such a time!"

  "In that moment, I was moved, and I really despised myself. Reflecting on the time we spent together, I realized that compared to you, I'm not even worth a fart! What right do I have to hate you? What qualifications do I have to hate you?! Just because you can casually take out thousands of yuan, it's enough to prove that your family conditions aren't bad either. But in school, you've never shown off anything. So many girls like you because you're excellent yourself, so what right do I have to be jealous? What right do I have to be envious?"

  Silence, all around was quiet except for the sound of insects chirping.

  After a long time, Mo Shaokun sighed and said: "Sorry, I...I really didn't think that I would unintentionally hurt you. From the day I entered dorm 206, from the time you guys helped me fight during military training, I have considered each and every one of you as brothers. I really hadn't thought about showing off..."

  "No! You're not wrong, I am." Chen Hai shook his head and looked at Mo Shaokun seriously.

  "To have you as an excellent campus star as my roommate, I should be proud of it, but I was blinded by jealousy and almost missed a person who truly treated me like a brother!"

  Qishen rushed towards Mo Shaokun and bowed, Chen Hai continued: "Shaokun, I'm sorry. In the past, I was narrow-minded, but it won't happen again."

  "Don't say that, I understand how you feel." Mo Shaokun stood up and patted Chen Hai's shoulder.

  Chen Hai suddenly smiled and lightly punched Mo Shaokun's chest, saying: "I won't say sentimental words, anyway from now on I've figured it out, you Mo Shaokun are a man worthy of being brothers, I Chen Hai am willing to be brothers with you!"

  Before Mo Shao Kun could speak, Chen Hai's expression changed slightly and he said: "However... Wei Qianqian is a good girl, if you don't like her then say it clearly early on, don't keep dragging things out like this."

  Mo Shaokun nodded, previously he couldn't bear to refuse a girl, he always felt that would make her lose face. But now he thinks it's also time to find an opportunity to clarify things with Wei Qianqian.

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